: Mujhe choome...mujhe sahalaaye.mujhe dabaaye. - PART II

Mujhe choome...mujhe sahalaaye.mujhe dabaaye. - PART II

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aur mai kamar ke neeche namgi ho gayi. is prakaar apane naukar ke aage
namge hone me mere sharam ka paaraawaar na tha. meri to saams hi atak
gayi. mai ghabaraahat mem vahi jamin par baitha gayi.. tab vah mujhe
ek baar phir god me utha kar palamg par daal diya. aur agale pal jo
kiya us ki to maine kalpana tak nahi ki thee-ki aaj mere saath aisa
bhi hoga. usane mujhe palamg par patakaa aur khud mere upar chadhata
chala gaya. ek pal ko mai neeche thi wo upar..doosare pal meri taamge
uthi hui thi..teesare pal wo meri taamgom ke beech tha..chothe pal
usane apani dhoti ke ek aur se apana lund baahar kar liya
tha..paamchawe pal usane haath me pakad kar apana lund meri chut se
ada diya tha..aur...chathe pal...to ek moti si..garam si..kadak
si.cheej mere andar thi. aur...bas.phir kya tha.kamare mem shaam ke
samay naukarmaalakin...aurat aur mard ban gaye the. meri to saams bamd
ho gayi thi. shareer aith gaya tha. dhadakane ruk gayi thi. aamkhe
pathara gayi thi. jeebh sookh gayi thi. mai apane hosh me nahi thi ki
mere saath kya ho raha hai. jo kar raha tha wo wah kar raha tha. mai
to bas chup padi thi. na maine koi sahayog diya.na maine koi virodh
kiya. bas...jo usane kiya wo karawa liya. saat saal baad..ghar ke
naukar se...pata nahi kya hua mai to koi virodh hi na kar saki.
bas.usane ghuseda...aur chod diya...mere mumh se uf bhi na nikali. mai
padi rahi taamgom ko uthaayeaurwo dhakke pe dhakke maarata gaya...pata
nahi kitani der.pata nahi kitani der..usaka mota sa lund meri chut ko
raumdata raha. ragadta rahaa mai behosh si padi karawaati
rahi.phir...ant aaya..wo mere andar dher sa paani chod diya...mai
apane naukar ke veerya se tarabatar ho uthi.. jab wah alag hua to mai
kaampati hui uthi aur namgi hi baatharum chali gayi. mere man me yah
bodh tha ki yah mene kya kar daala..ek vidhava ho kar chudawa li..wo
bhi ek naukar se.apane naukar se..haay yah kya ho gaya.yah galat
hai...yah nahi hona chaahiye tha. ab kya hoga ???????.mai baatharum
gayi. wahaam baitha kar mooti. mujhe badi jor ki pishaab lagi thi.
mene jhuk kar dekha..meri jhaatem usake veerya se chipachipa rahi thi.
mene sab paani se saaf kiya. itane me aur pishaab a gayi. aur mooti.
phir taawel lapet kar baahar nikali to saamane hariya khada tha.mujh
se to nazar bhi na milaayi gai.aur mai bagal se nikal ke apane kamare
me chali gayi..

(dusari baar ).us shaam mai baatharoom se nikal kar bistar par ja
giree. letate hi mujhe khumaari ki gahari Nind aayee.kareeb saat saal
baad maine kisi mard ka land liya thaa. chudaayi anjaane mem hui
thee.beman se hui thee,phir bhi chudaayi to chudaayi thee.mai to aisi
padi ki munna ne hi a kar jagaayaa..raat khaane ki mej par mai hariya
se akhe nahi mila pa rahi thee.badi mushkil se maine khaana
khaayaa...baar baar dil mem yahi khyaal aata ki memne yah kya kar
daalaa-apane naukar se chudawa li..vidhava hokar..kaisa paap kar
daalaa..raat mai khaane ke baad bhi hariya se kuch na bolee.bas
chupachaap munna ke saath ja kar apane kamare mem so gayee. so to
gayi...par meri akhom mem Nind na thi.mai do bhaagom mem bat gayi
thee-dil aur dimaag. dil aaj ki ghatana ko achcha kah raha tha.aur
dimaag buraa. mera dil kahata tha mai vidhava ka jeevan ji rahi
thee.agar bhagawaan ne meri sunakar ek land ka intajaam kar diya to
kya kharaabi hai.par mera dimaag ise paap maan raha thaa..kya
karum..kya na karum...sochate sochate mai munna ke saath leti thee.
munnaabodhko meri manodasha ka gyaan nahi thaa. wah aaraam se so gaya
tha..mai jaag rahi thee. ki darawaaje ki kundi bajee. kon ho sakata
hai.? ghar mem hariya ke alaawa koi nahi thaa. wahi hogaa. kyom aaya
hai ab ? mai chup rahi to kundi phir bajee. tab mai utha kar gayi aur
darawaaja kholaa. wahi thaa. use dekh mai jhemp si gayee..kyom aaye ho
yaha ?bibijeeandar a jaaum ?nahitum jaaoyaha se aur mene darawaaja
band kar liyaa..meri sas tej ho gayee. ma ree.yah to andar hi aana
chaah raha thaa. kya karata andar a kar ? off.kya phir
se..chudaayi.?????? ma..munna hai yaha..dubaara ? na baaba na..to kya
ho gaya is mem.sab to karate hai..ek baar to karawa li ab or kya hai ?
agar dubaara bhi karawa legi to kya bigad jaayega ? bhagawaan ne ek
moka diya hai to usaka maja le.baar baar aise moke kaha milate hai.
saat saal se taras rahi hum..mai padi rahi..sochati rahee. moka mila
hai to rukama us ka phaayada uthaa.jawaani yum hi to nikal gayi
hai.baaki bhi nikal jaayegi.achcha bhala aaya tha bechaaraa..bhaga
diyaa. use to koi dusari mil jaayegee.us ki to aurat bhi hai.tera kon
hai.tujhe kon milega ? paap he..paap he..me hi saari jindagi nikal
gayee.. thodi der ho gayi to mujhe pachataawa hone laga ki bekaar ek
maja lene ka chas kho diyaa. tab mai uthi aur ja kar kundi
kholee.darawaaje ke baahar nikal kar dekhi..o ma..hariya to wahi
deewaar se sata baitha thaa.aur beedi pi raha thaa.mujhe aaya dekhakar
wah beedi phekakar utha khada huaa. mere paas aayaa.mai jhijhakati si
haath mem saadi ka pallu lapetati hui boli...gaye nahi ab tak.. wah
mera haath pakad kar apane haath me le liyaa.apana naram naram naajuk
sa haath usake mardaana haath mem jaate hi mujhapar nasha sa cha
gayaa..mujhe vishawaasa tha ki aap jaroor aaogee. kah kar wah mujhe
apani taraf kheecha to mai nirvirodha usaki taraf khichi chali
gayee.wah mujhe apani baahom mem badh liyaa.usake chode seene se lag
kar mai jawaani ka anokha sukh pa gayee. mai us ke seene mem apana
chehara chupa bol padee..hariya mujhe dar lagata hai...-dar kaisa
beebeejee. wah meri peeth par baahom ka bandhan sakht kar diyaa..mai
kasamasaaee..ek mardaane badan mem bamdhana bada hi sukhad laga raha
thaa..koi dekh lega na..

yaha ghar ke ghar mem kon dekhane aayega beebeejee.wah apani baahom ka
bamdhan sakhta kiyaa..mai sharamaate hue usaki chodi chaati mem mumh
chupa lee..munna to hai naa..-are wo to abhi chota hai..wo kya jaanata
hai abhee..mai usaki baahom ke ghere mem kasamasaayee..aur jo kuch rah
gaya to.mai vidhava kya karumgi ?kya ? wah kucha samajha nahi.yahi.mai
jhijhakee..kah na paayee.rukee.sas lee. kahee..arare raam.kahi mai pet
se rah gayi to... hariya ke dwaara garbhavati hone ki baat se hi mujhe
jhurajhuri a gayee.jise usane saaph mahasus kiya..mere jawaan jism ko
baahom me jakada aur peeth par haatha phiraata hua bolaa..bibijee yadi
aisa ho jaaye ki bachcha na hoy to. mai us ki baahom ki garami mahsoos
karati hui budabudaai.kya aisa ho sakata hai ?samajho ki aisa ho chuka
hai..mai nazar uthaai..use dekhee. wah mumcho mem muskara diyaa..abhi
pichali baar chah mahine pahale jab mai gav gaya tha na to mene
aapareshan karava liya thaa..mai us ki chaati mem naak ragadee..kaisa
aapareshan ? yahi..bachche bamd hone kaa.-haay mujhe to bataaya hi
nahi.ab aap ko kya bataata beebeejee...pach bachche to ho gaye.jab bhi
gav jaata hum ek bachcha ho jaata hai...us ke kahane ka dhmg aisa tha
ki.mujhe hmsi a gayee. mujhe hamsata pa usane mujhe aisi jor se
bheecha ki mere uroj usake seene se dab uthe..aur phir wah aaturata se
mere pichawaade par haath lagaaya to mai chihumk kar kah
uthee..hariya..yaha nahi.. mera ishaara samajh hariya mera haath pakad
kheechata hua mujhe apane kamare mem le gayaa. aur mai usake saath
bina na nukur kiye chali gayee. hariya ka kamaraa...mere hi ghar ka ek
kamara thaa. us mem ek khatiya bichi thee. ek kone me mori bani thi.
aur dusare kone mem ek aaliya tha jisamem bhagawaan biraaje the.
kamare mem pahumchakar to mere pav jaise jam se gaye. mai ek hi jagah
khadi rah gayee. tab wah wahi mujhe apani balishta bhujaao mem badha
liyaa.mai chupachaap us ke seene se lag gayee..aap bahut khubasurat ho
beebeejee.wah badabada uthaa.usake haath swatantrata se meri peeth par
ghumane lage. mai khadi kuch der to usaki sahalaawat ka aanand leti
rahee.mujhe bahut achcha lag raha thaa.saat saal baad kisi mard ka
sparsha mila thaa. phir mai kunamuna ke bolee..hariya darawaaja laga
do..-are bibijee yaha kon aayega...-uhum.tum to laga do.. wah ja kar
darawaja laga aayaa. aake mere ko pakadaa.mai
bichakee..hariya..laait..-bibijee rahane do na.andhere mem kya maja
aayega.wah mujhe baahom mem badhaa.mujhe sharam aati hai naa.. wah na
sunaa. bas peeche haath chalaata raha. mai thodi der baad phir
kunamunaaee..laait bamd karo naa. tab wah beman se laait band kiyaa.
kamare me andhera ho gayaa. andhere band kamare me mai abhi thodi si
chen ki sas bhi na li thi ki wah mujhe pakad kar khatiya par patak
diyaa.aur khud mere saath a gayaa..mera dil jorom se dhadak raha thaa.
ab phir se chudane ki ghadi a gayi thee. wah mere saath gutham gutha
ho gayaa.

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