Mujhe choome...mujhe sahalaaye.mujhe dabaaye. - PART I

 Mujhe choome...mujhe sahalaaye.mujhe dabaaye. - PART I

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mai dekhane me
theek thaak sundar hu. gora ramg. bara badan. aakarshak chehara. bade
bade tane hue uroj. maamsal jaanghe. ubhare hue koolhe. yaani ki mard
ko priy lagane waali har cheej mere paas he. lekin mai vidhava hoom.
mere paas mard hi nahi hai. mere pati ka dehaant hue saat saal hue
hem. mere ek ladaka hai.usake janm ke samay hi mere pati chal base
the.ab munne ki umar saat saal ki hai. pichale saat saal se mai
vidhava ka jeevan gujaar rahi hum. mera ghar ka bada sa makaan he.
usame mere alaawa kiraayedaar bhi rahate hem. me skool me teechar
hum..ye mere jeevan ki sachchi kahaani hai. aap se kuch nahi
chupaaugi. dara-asal seks ko lekar meri haalat kharaab thi. mene pati
ke gujarane ke baad kisi mard se sambhog nahi kiya. saat saal ho gaye.
din to gujar jaata hai par raat ko badi baicheni rahati hai. mai theek
se so bhi nahi paati hu man bhatakata rahata hai. raat ko apani
jaamghom ke beech takiya laga kar ragadati hoom. kai baar kalpana me
kisi mard ko basa kar usase sambhog karati hoom...aur takiya ragadati
hoom. man me sada yahi hota rahata hai ki koi mard mujhe apani baahom
me le kar pees daale.mujhe choome...mujhe sahalaaye.mujhe dabaaye.mere
saath naana prakaar ki kriyaaye kare. par aisa koi moka nahi hai.
maire vidhava hone ki vajah se pati ka pyaar meri kismat me nahi
hai..yu to mohalle ke bahut se mard mere peeche pade rahate hai par
mera man kisi par nahi aata. mai darati hum. ek to samaaj se ki
doosarom ko maalum padega to log kya kahemge ? paas pados
hai...rishtedaar hai..skool hai..dusare khud se ki agar kahi bachcha
thahar gaya to kya karumgi ? isaliye mai khud hi tadapati rahati hum.
mujhe to sharm bhi bahut aati hai ki ab kisi se kya kahum ki mere paas
mard nahi hai aao mujhe chodo...aap se man ki baat kahi hai. mere din
inhi paristhitiyom me nikal rahe the..inhi manodasha ke beech ek din
mere sambandh mere naukar se ban gaye..hariya, mera naukar.umra, 30-35
ki hai. gaav ka hai. pahaadi taakatawar kasarati deh pholadi badan
thoda kaala ramg badi badi mumche yum rahata saaf suthara hai. pichale
do saal se mere paas naukar hai. maine use apane hi ghar me ek kamara
de rakha hai. is prakaar wo hamaare saath hi rahata hai. usaki beebi
gaamv me rahati hai. bachche hai-paamch ! saal me ek do baar chutti
lekar gaamv jaata hai...baaki samay hamaare saath hi rahata hai.mai
skool jaati hum atah usake rahane se mujhe badi sahooliyat rahati hai.
wah beedi bahut peeta hai. ek tarah se wah hamaare ghar ka sadasya hi
hai..ek aurat ki drashti se dekhum to wah pura mard hai aur usame wo
sab khubeeyaam hai jo ek mard me hona chaahiye...bas jara kaala hai
aur beedi bahut peeta hai..yah kahaani hariya aur mere sambandh ki
hai..us din. shaam ka samay tha. munna ghar se baahar khelane gaya
tha. mai aur hariya ghar me akele the. mai gir padi...giri to jor se
cheekhi...ghabara gayi. hariya daud kar aaya..aur mujhe god me utha
kar palamg par litaaya..bibijee..kaha lagi.doctor ko bulaau
?nahi..nahi.doctor ki kya jarurat hai..wese hi theek ho
jaaugi.tab.aayodeksa laga dum.

wah daud kar gaya aur aayodeks ki sheeshi le aaya..kaha lagi hai
bataao..bibijee. usaka vyavahaar dekh mai kah di.yahaam..peeche lagi
he..pomd par.. wah mujhe ulta kar ke lita diya. aur mere pomd par
apane haath laga kar dekhane laga. sacha kahum to usaki harakatem
mujhe achchi lag rahi thi. aaj do saal se wo mere saath haikabhi usane
mere saath koi galat harakat nahi kiya hai. aaj is tarah usaka mujhe
pahale god me uthaanaphir abhi ulat kar pomd sahalaana..wo to meri
chomt dekhane ke bahaane mere pomd ko sahalaane hi lag gaya tha. lekin
usaka haath,usaka sparsha mujhe achcha hi lag raha tha. isaliye mai
chup padi rahi. wah pahale to baitha kar meri saadi par se pomd
sahalaayaa-phir kamar par malham lagaaya. malham lagaate lagaate
bolabibijee tanik saadi dheeli kar lo..neeche tak laga deta hum.saadi
kharaab ho jaayegi.mujhe to dard ho raha tha aur usaka sparsha achcha
bhi lag raha thaath mene thunakate hue haath neeche le ja kar peteekot
ka naada kheech diya..aur saadi peteekot dheela kar diya..mai to ulti
padi thihariya ne jab kaampate haathom se mere kapade neeche karake
mere pomd pahali baar dekhe to janaab ki seeti nikal gayi...mumh se
nikala.bibijee..aap to bahut gori haim.aap ke jaisa to hamaare gaamv
me ek bhi nahi hai. apani taareef sun mai sharama gayi. wo to achcha
tha ki mai aumdhi padi thi..akele bamd kamare me jawaan maalakin ke
saath us ki bhi haalat kharaab thi.kareeb chah mahine se wah apani
beebi ke paas nahi gaya tha. maire gore gore pomd dekh kar usaki
dhadakane badh gayee,haath kaampane laga. par mard ho kar itana achcha
mauka kaise chod deta ?.mere gore gore maamsal nitamb dawaai lagaane
ke bahaane sahalaane laga. dawa kam lagaaihaath jyaada phera..jab
sahalaate sahalaate thodi der ho gayi aur usane dekha ki mai virodh
nahi kar rahi hum to aage badh gaya.khulepan se mere dono kulhom par
haath chalaane laga. pahale ek..phir dusara..jahaam chomt nahi lagi
thi vahaam bhi..phir dono kulhom ke beech ki gahari ghaati bhi..jab wo
maire dono kulhom ko haath se choda karake beech ki jagah dekha to mai
to saams lena hi bhool gayi. wah choda kar ke mera guda dwaar aur
peeche ki or se meri chut tak dekh liya tha. ab aapako kya bataau us
ke haath ke sparsh se hi mai kaamuk ho uthi thi. aur meri chut ki
jagah geeli geeli ho chali thi. meri chut par kaaphi bade bade baal
the..mene apani jhaamtem kai maheenom se nahi banaai thi. mujh vidhava
ka tha bhi kaun..jis ke liye mai apani chut ko saja sawaamr kar
rakhati ? kamare me shaam ka dhumdhalaka to tha par abhi andhera nahi
hua tha. mai ek anokhe daur se gujar rahi thi..mera naukar sahala raha
tha aur mai padi padi sahalawa rahi thi. mera naukar mere guptaamg ko
peeche se dekh raha tha aur mai padi padi dikha rahi thi. yahaam tak
to theekpar jab usane jaanabujh kar ya anjaane mem mere guda dwaar ko
apani umgali se tch kiya to mai uchak padi. shareer me jaise karent
laga ho..ek dam se usaka haath pakad ke hata di aur kah
uthihaay..kya..karate..ho..saath hi haath jhatak kar utha baithi. mai
ghabara gayi thi aur mujh se jyada wo ghabaraaya hua tha. mai usaka
iraada nek na samajha kar palamg se utara padi. parantu mera wo utha
kar khade hona gajab ho gaya. kyom ki meri saadi to khuli hui thi.
khadi hui to saadi aur peteekot dono dhalakakar paavom me ja gire...

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........raj.........